Missing Summer

shhh

Shh don't tell anyone I'm here... i haven't been here for quite some time now, actually i have been very close to deleting here for a couple of months now but i just couldn't let go but i had nothing to say either... i was in limbo. Limbo that odd place where you don't belong but you don't not belong either. I'm just realising limbo is a place i have been emotionally for quite some time now without really realising it. I have been not really letting anything in emotionally nor have i been really letting anything out either... just been keeping on that equilibrium, not rocking the boat, not causing any panic, just being normal... or so i thought.

I guess everything crashed way back in January when my Uncle passed away or maybe it was November 2010 when i was a survivor of my workplace retrenchments or maybe it was June 2010 when my first love told me he had moved on and was living with someone else or it was March 2010 where my first love and i broke up for the 100th time or it was back in 2009 when i lost a piece of us and didn't, still don't know how to tell anyone.

So moving forward (Julia styles) i need to deal with the past and look forward to the future, i need to stop moving with the crowd and find my own path and light it with candles and decorate it with flowering hedges and map it out with directional signs. I hope this place it a part of the journey but i cant promise anything i can only do what i can do.

its a fair way to anywhere

snapshots

Darren

I am a huge fan of NRL, the Brisbane Broncos and of course Darren Lockyer. After 17 years in the game Darren has announced his retirement from NRL. In my opinion he has handled his career on and off the field professionally and is the best player in the game. He has played and captioned at the elite level – State of Origin and Australia – and broken his fair share of records without too much fanfare. I am biased but I am sad to see such a legend of the game retire especially one that I have watched run around the field in my favourite colours for so long. I wish Darren and his family all the best and look forward to watching him play for the rest of the season.

Now to book those state of origin tickets and flights J

Time fly's...

WOW its Monday and i am back at work after 3 days off, i swear it feels like i only had 1 day off. I know we all say this every year but 2011 is truly flying by! Weeks seem to speed by with a jumble of workload stress, catch up's with the wolfpack and boot camp sessions. I have such a set routine i am not finding there is anything truly memorable about the weeks flying by. So again i make another pledge here to make my weeks (and days) memorable and post the little reasons why. Because as i said before and my desktop picture reminds me:

Home Repairs

So this afternoon i am here waiting for the owner of the rental property i live in to fix the issues I reported last week with the kitchen tap and the bathroom door.With the owner of the house doing the repairs it meant that i had to scrub the place from head to toe and do that extra special clean up. I know i didint have to however i felt that he was coming to make sure i am keeping the place clean as well as fix the issues.
With a trades person doing you repairs you don't have to make conversation or even make them a cup of tea.. The owner i kind of feel i have to...  but it would just be an easier process if i was dealing with a trades person on a weekday and not giving up my saturday afternoon to make polite banter over cups of tea with the owner. Oh well looks like his mug is low i must put the kettle on again...

Have a B.E.A-utiful weekend

I plan to have a few champers with the girls for Miss Natalie's birthday, as i mentioned in my last post i will be working over the weekend so I'm planning to just chill out on Saturday night with a little you ling we bring (aka Thai) and catch up with one of my dearest friends Keryn for Sunday breakfast and holiday planning.

Have a B.E.A-utiful weekend and i will see you back here on Monday xx



pick me up

I'm tired and stressed and my face is telling everyone that storey no matter how much yves saint laurent touche eclat radiant touch or bobby brown under eye corrector i use.

I need a pick me up, i am craving a lush spa session at Endota - deluxe facial and a few rounds of OMNILUX Light Therapy and a stress reliveing massage. Unfortunately my budget wont strech that far so im planning to do a home facial tonight and indulge in a massage and a paint and shape at the OPI bar at DJ's. I'm also going to increase my water intake and try get to sleep by 10pm tonight.

What do you do for a pick me up??

the little things

Today I need to power through the masses of project documentation that needs to be completed this week. One of my main strategies is to write a priority list, a questions list, get a large coffee, divert the phone(s) to voicemail, close out of my email and plug my ipod in and power through. I am lucky to work with people who understand this and let me go for it.

Whether its your ipod on the bus ride home, playing music while your getting ready, the radio in your car, your favourite cd to lift your mood, Music on - World off says it all doesn't it??

my blissful weekend

My weekend was sunny and blissful. Tanya and I treated ourselves to massages and facials at Endota then spent the afternoon lunching and shopping, I did all my 'chores' and spent a lazy Sunday afternoon playing barefoot lawn bowls for my friends Sarah's birthday. It was a great afternoon but i am definitely not very good at lawn bowls. How was your weekend?

have a bliss filled weekend

a baby girl - updated

Congratulations to the Kristen and Damien on the safe arrival of their baby girl - Taylah Shea! A little sister to Hayley and Emily!

Im so happy for you all and cannot wait to meet the little miss when i come visit in May xx

uncle Dave

Was a husband to Samantha
Was a father to Alexandra and Jack and a Step father to Amber and Erica
Was a son to Patricia and Edward
Was a brother to Debbie and Gary
Was an uncle to my cousins and I
Called me Chicken
Was in the Australian Army until he had to become an Australian Citizan (he is British)
Travelled the world
Loved a bet on the horses
Joked, laughed and tormented
Taught me the lessons he had learnt
Literally gave people the shirt off the back
Promised to haunt me
Loved life

Rest in Peace Uncle David you will be forever in our hearts

summer

I’ve been swept away… I’ve been swept away and caught up in the beauty that is summer. I’ve been watching the cricket and lazing in the pool, enjoying Bubble-o-Bills, salads and vodka sunrises. I’ve been laughing and enjoying the sun on my skin warming me inside and out. I’ve been playing with my brothers and hanging out with my homies.

i am

I’m the girl who plays it safe and knows what suits her body shape. I always prefer it in black. I’m the girl who starts stripping the second she walks in the door – work clothes off, trackies and hoodie on. I walk on my toes and prance rather than run, I can’t help it. I’m more comfortable skydiving then I am speaking when the spotlight on me. I’m the least photogenic person ever.

I know people and have acquaintances and friends, but keep my circle of close friends small. And I’m fiercely protective of them. Fair weather friends aren’t my scene and I don’t put up with bullshit.

I can run my mouth with the best of them and I am very opinionated, but I’ve learned to keep it in check. Most of the time… And I’ll be the first to admit that I’m kind of a snob. I know what I like, I know what’s good to me and I might be judging you for thinking otherwise. But I’ll be damned if I’m not one of the nicest and most real people you’ll ever meet.

I’m the girl who picks wine based on the prettiness of the names and labels. I love handmade and crafty things, but can’t do it myself for the life of me. I can quote movie/ TV show lines almost word for word and do so on regular (and probably annoying) basis. I have stacks of books all over the place and can spend days holed up reading and be perfectly happy. I probably have the oddest music collection you ever did see.

I believe pinky promises are still serious business, and that vanilla lattes are one of the best inventions ever. I could eat pasta and cheese every day of the week, and think carbs are the worst invention ever. I’m a sentimental kind of gal and can think of reasons to hold on to pretty much anything.

I’m the girl who gets nervous talking to new people and never know what to say for fear of sounding like an idiot. I constantly worry I’m bothering people so if I’m quiet, that’s probably why. But when I finally feel comfortable, I’d love nothing more than to sit down over drinks and talk forever.

In the past year and a half, I found myself and realised what I’m truly capable of. I’ve learned when to fight for something and when to let go. I’ve learned that sometimes when you think shit just can’t get any worse, it does. You just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep on.

Don’t let it make you hard. Let it make you stronger.

queensland floods - please donate

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inspiring tattoos

goodbye 2010

2010 was the year I was single, completed the City 2 Surf & 7 bridges walk, played soccer, went on a south coast drive day, started a blog, failed 365 photo challenge, volunteered for NBCF, watched QLD won their 5th straight origin series, finally bought an alarm clock, continued my love affair with vanilla lattes, moved house once, enjoyed winter ‘the extended remix’, got a wisdom tooth out, worked on 8 projects, saw U2 & Linkin Park, celebrated my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, relived memories in Shoal Bay and loved life with friends and family. Happy New Year!

2011 to me is the year of new beginings and saying yes!!!

linkin park

Last night i went and saw Linkin Park in concert at Acer arena. It was an AMAZING show and i had soo much fun!!! Here are some pictures of the night.